OCD and Hard Times

There’s a direct correlation between my OCD and handling difficult issues in my life. When I say OCD- I’m talking about my need to organize (see also: need to have control over something). Sometimes, right at the beginning of dealing with something stressful I fall into my ‘whatever’ mode where I don’t do laundry for weeks and refuse to comply with the general upkeep of my house. And then, when I’m about to explode, it hits- and I clean. My house has never been this organized. Er, well- the rooms that we live daily life in any way. (The guest room doesn’t count.)

Example A: my spotless, full, and organized fridge.

And so that is where I’ve been a lot more often than I’ve been here on the blog. I’ve been moving furniture to vacuum under it, taking everything out of the fridge to scrub it and reorganize it by food type, size, and color, spending hours in my closet stacking shoes in pretty formations and gathering tank tops by color, dresses by color, length, and strap type. GUYS. It’s serious in here. There’s nothing I haven’t spent copious amounts of time organizing and cleaning. And I’ve actually sort of kept up with the removal of the layer of dust and bunny hair that covers everything… like.. 15 minutes after I’ve dusted. (Exaggeration, yes – but really WHERE DOES THIS MUCH DUST COME FROM!?)

Organization is my coping mechanism, and I’ve clung to it. Through the loss of my best friend- due to a complete misunderstanding, lack of communication, and both of us just not being able to figure it out to handle it or understand it. Through a roller coaster of highs and lows at my job. Through worrying about finding time to go home and visit family. Through friends experiencing hard times. To now: dealing with Cancer, yet again, in my family. This has been a really …unforeseen last few months. I think the saying goes, “If you’re going through hell- keep going.” I’m still going and I’m still focusing on the good people and good things in my life. I hope that if you’re going through something tough right now as well that you will remember that everyone is fighting their own battle, and we’re all struggling with something. But let’s keep going! (and organizing….)

I will be around more often. I just need to get a little time management in order! My hours at work have been a little bit different, and my ‘us’/comforting time with Nate has come first. I appreciate any prayers and good thoughts that you feel inclined to send our way. The next few weeks are going to be busy and hard and we could use the support!

PS: This is an off week for We Married Young, but I have a special guest scheduled for next week! And, make sure to get your entries in to win your very own choice of a pair of Blowfish shoes! The giveaway ends Friday 9PM EST!