OCD Overload!

If you have any form of OCD (specifically the kind that makes you want to organize)- you know how crazy it can get when you feel you don’t have the means to do what you NEED in terms of order and structure. Recently, I decided that I need a really good planner. I found the one I want:

Thing is- the base price is $50! Whoaboy, that’s a lot of cash for a planner- in my mind. But I feel like this thing could save my life, and when I decide I need something like this to organize my life there’s no convincing me otherwise. I’ve even convinced other people that this thing is worth the money- Erica bought one because I tweeted about it! I’m afraid though- afraid to dump money into something that I will use and then toss aside a couple months from now in need of a new gadget to save my life! However, I’ve had great success with planners that fit my needs (like this one would) in the past – so it’s a toss up. I ventured into Target tonight and found one that could probably make me happy, for $15. I’m going to hit up Joseph Beth tomorrow and see if I can’t find something a little more unique, probably a bit more expensive than $15, but definitely not $50! We shall see!

My HOUSE (in my EYES) is a wreck! Okay, not by most standards is my house a wreck. It’s just Nate and I- how bad could it be? It’s not that bad. But I’m having the OCD freak out and I feel like because I don’t have the planner yet and I haven’t been able to make lists and order my to-dos yet that I just don’t want to do anything. That doesn’t even make sense, does it? It’s like when I clean the bedroom- I have to make the bed first or I can’t even do anything else. Hilarious. I don’t know why I need to do things like this in such order. I just always have.

I’ve also been experiencing the very HIGH of highs and LOWS of lows- in relation to all of the organization stuff. When I leave for work in the morning I’m super excited and ready to go but I want to stay home and get a ton of things done- I feel like I could get everything done that I want to do! When I get off work I feel really low and unenergized (beyond normal) and I just want to lay down and sleep or sulk about whatever I can find- like all of the stuff I want to get done but just.. can’t. Ridiculous! And somehow, my planner will FIX IT ALL. 😉

It didn’t help at all that I read this post (I love her blog!) right around the time I started thinking I missed having a planner. And BOOM. I’m convinced I’ll die without a planner.

I’m thinking that tonight I will focus my energy into cleaning the kitchen/downstairs and then completely making my website into what I want, or at least working on it. 🙂 Maybe this will help, but I guarantee it results in me bouncing off of the walls all night when I should go to bed early and get an early start on tomorrow while I’m experiencing my “high”! Does anyone else experience these types of OCD? How do you handle it? I just manage my time really poorly and then have a complete panic attack about what I need to get done and have no time to do! Crazy!