I’d like to introduce all of my readers (read: my family and friends) to the huge rut I’ve been in. If you have visited my blog in the last few months or so you’ve probably already met, sort of. Like in one of those awkward situations where you should introduce yourself confidently to the new person you’ve just met, but instead you just make shy/weird eye contact. Yeah. But I’m glad I can finally and formally introduce you.
I’m not giving up on blogging. I’m not. I won’t. I’ve seen so many people talk about how so and so (blogger) should just hang it up already, quit while you’re ahead, etc. I’ve let so many little opinions on other people, which have nothing to do with me, trip me up and stop me from writing or sharing something I like or think. There are several posts that are 99% complete sitting in my draft folder. I’ve come into this space a thousand times promising that I’m “so inspired” and I have “so many ideas” and then I don’t post for a month. Some days I feel like, yeah – I could share anything here. I want to write my heart out, share experiences, and connect with others. Other days, it feels vulnerable and weird – feelings that I never truly experienced until recently. I’ve always, always been such a “heart on my sleeve” kind of person. I’m an open book and I have always liked that about myself. I still do, I’ve just become a little more guarded. I think it’s a good thing… I’m just working on finding the right balance.
I won’t make promises anymore regarding my “big ideas”. If I have them, ya know, I’ll just… execute them. There’s a big idea! I’m usually 4-5 steps ahead of myself when it comes to how inspired I feel. This is usually coffee induced excitement. I run to my blog and “shout it from the rooftops”, and then, well you know. You don’t hear from me for a month.
I will tell you what I want to do and what I hope to do: write, photograph, and document life with reckless abandon. It may be boring, imperfect, and unworthy of an audience. It may be a picture of something that someone else has already taken a similar picture of a thousand times. My thoughts and feelings may be repetitive and they will surely not be mind boggling genius. But they will be mine. I don’t have time to take a backseat to other people who are “doing it better” anymore. So keep an eye out on this space. No promises.. but I hope to be around more.
I remember you mentioning before that you were going to do some posts on your hair and all the tricks you have for not washing it. I'm still waiting on those posts 🙂 I've started so I only wash my hair every other day. I'd love to wash it less.
Oh!! Good idea! Thank you for the feedback. My ideas for posts can be fleeting. I will work on getting that one together. 🙂
Ditto to what the reader above said about waiting to see your posts in washing your hair less. I have crazy curly hair, and I get a keratin treatment in it now to make it straight- they say I'm not suppose to wash my hair every day. Anyhow, it's okay to be in a rut. I do look forward to seeing your posts, but at some point I won't even be around for a long while to read them as much as I'd like to or view the pretty photos. But I will be back at some point, and I hope you're still around sharing your thoughts and life! -Jess L
I am going to be so sad when you're not around to blog for a while! 🙁 🙁
I will definitely do a post on how I get away with not washing my hair often! I don't feel like I have any super genius advice, but maybe my routine is a little different and will be helpful! 🙂 PS: I wish I had curly hair. Hehe.
About 99% of what I post, I'm positive I'm the only one who cares about it! But I love going back and reading it, so I don't care 😉 My favorite posts are just about everyday "boring" things anyway…you really can't go wrong! Jessica Lawhorn
Those are the best posts! The ones that you think no one else will care about but you. 🙂 I'm trying to get back to writing what I want and when I want, and worrying less about all of the other details!
Just do what you've got to do. 🙂 Unless it makes you happy, don't do it (unless it's housework, haha). I think we all put too much pressure on ourselves to "perform" to an unseen audience. Don't worry about what other people think – do what makes you happy, and that will naturally draw people to you.
I've got you in my RSS feeds so I'll always see if there's a new post. Some of my favourite bloggers only post once in a blue moon!
I don't know if you remember me, but I do comment from time to time on your blog, I'm also from the Bang MB / Rebel / Belle MB. I started aerial silks and I did comment saying ages ago, I'd share video from one of our performances. Finally got it! 🙂 Check it out here if you want: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDirOGxrAuM
Unless it's housework! Hahaha. I laugh because sometimes I ignore that a little more than I should. 😉 But yes, you are so right! I'm trying to just go with the flow a little bit more! Thanks for keeping me in your RSS feed. 🙂
And thank you, thank you for sharing the video from your performance!! You did fantastic!! I actually just performed in my very first showcase on Sunday night. I did a really simple routine in the knot, but I'm still proud for not chickening out. 😉 You looked beautiful, by the way! Love the makeup and outfit!