When I first found out about the showcase I couldn’t even entertain the thought of being in it. I’m still so new at this. I never want to show anyone something I’m working on until it’s flawless. I take
myself public embarrassment very (way too) seriously. But I started to watch the other ladies work on their routines and it looked like so much fun. Everyone was being helpful and encouraging to one another. What was I afraid of? Having fun? Making friends? I decided to put my name down on the list. I changed my song 3 or 4 times, was still putting my routine together long after everyone else, threw a few pity parties at practices, and bought my outfit the day before the show. Yes, yesterday. And tonight I am going to do my best, have fun, and enjoy the experience.
I’ve realized that life is all about the journey. It’s not about getting from point A to point B as fast as possible. It’s not about trying something new and being immediately fantastic at it. It’s about persistence, hard work, and confidence. It’s about realizing that wasting time comparing yourself to anyone else will crush your spirit faster than anything. It’s about starting at point A and appreciating everything it takes to get to point B.
Wish me luck tonight!
(photo credit: here, here, + here)
The wheels turned in my mind: I have
almost no upper body strength – I’m going to be horrible at this! OR what if I fall in love with it after a few classes? It will be EXPENSIVE if I want to continue doing it after my 5 classes are over. And then I realized that this is the reason why I don’t do anything for myself. I overanalyze everything. I take things too seriously. I ‘what if’ everything to the point that I can’t decide on anything, I get frustrated, and say NEVER MIND. I drive Nate bonkers with this kind of stuff because he simply decides to do things and then he does them. So after telling him about it and receiving some encouraging words I decided I have to try it. There is no doubt that it will be difficult. I’m in no way delusional about how this will start out at first – frustrating and very probably, painful. Haha. But I can stick with it for at least 5 classes! I’m hoping a friend will go with me. Though I’m pretty sure she’ll be a natural with her history as a dancer/gymnast and I’ll be over there flopping around and trying to hang on. ;]
So, this is the first addition to my “26 Before 27” list and I’m well on my way to achieving it. I think this will be a fun and hilarious journey to take you guys along with me on so stay tuned! In the mean time… I’m going to go do some pull ups and attempt to delude myself into thinking that I’m going to eventually quit my day job and join the circus. The circus without clowns… because.. you know.. Nate hates clowns.
Have you ever tried anything like this? I’d love to hear all about it!!